Saturday, August 18, 2007
Playing: Rascal Flatts - My Wish
Count down: 2 days to SS/MT/CLB Prelim
Its been ages since I really had my blog updated about my life. Currently, I'm on a never-ending coaster ride. I've been suffering from insomnia for the past week due to these (few) factors:
● O Levels
● Prelim Examiations
● Weight Management
● Michael
● Insecurities
● Anger Management
Oftentimes I remind myself to prioritise. Action speaks louder than words. Easier to be said than done.
I'll share my secret with you.
I recieved my O level(MT) June paper result last Monday: E8.
From the start of the year, I made a decision to drop F&N(very time consuming subject) to concentrate on my other 6 core subjects. Come to think of it, I think I made the wrong choice of dropping it. I didn't expect myself to do so badly for MT to the extent with a grade of E8. I did not know how to react to it so I just kept quiet. Well there's no point of regretting it cos we can't change the past but we can change the future. (I know zephyr, this is not he first time i'm saying this)
What I considered after I recieved my terrible results were:
● Okay Anna Lee, at the rate you're going you won't be able to even qualify for the first 3mths. Can't even smell it
● I wasted my Dad's hard-earned money for 2 years(180/mth) and did not produce any results to make him proud
● What makes it worse that he was from HCI and expects me to do well for MT ok, at least a Pass(damn it)
● DSA(declined), DPA(declined) I'm on my own this time
● CLB
On a brighter note, our MT teacher told us to sign up for CLB and the CL paper for backup plan. Just in case I fail CL, I've got CLB(Pass grade) to back me up for a polytechnic course. (phewwwwwwwwWww)
This really hit me in the head woke me up from my slumber. Zephyr shared smth with me regarding our pal who sat for her O levels last year. Its private so I will pen down my opinion instead of telling you a long winded story.
I'm afraid that my drive and motivation will die out before I seat for my O level. I'm left with 2 months. Friends and loved ones remind me constantly that I'm left with 2 mths and give it my best shot and get it over and done with and not be distracted with.. (fill in the blanks) I think I procrastinate too much. Zephyr and Michael will definately agree. I can't seem to get myself on the ball and prepare myself for the upcoming examinations.
Where's my source of motivation?!?!?!?!
There's no time to waste, 2mth(4wks x2) thats how little time we've left! (for those who are seating for O levels this yr)
To sum up everything, persistence, determination and faith is what I lack now and I've fighting to keep up with time. I hope I will figure out what the h is wrong with me today I've got no more time to waste, seriously. I shall not whine anymore and let some photos to do some side tracking.
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S5/2 for you
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A lil peek of my favourite boy&I
My family & I
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