My whrilling emotions are killing me due to the daily pills that I've been popping into my body. I get so cranky that I get irritable at the minor-est(bet there's a word) issues. I could even breakdown in the at the early morning hours like 3am. I called Zephyr and I cried my heart out.

Enough of the emo shit, first day of the September hols. A new month, a month closer to O levels, a month closer to October, a month closer closer... ah,

Something else, I look forward to the end of the month cos its something distinctively exceptionally important. However, if I compare it with Olvls, okay Olvls' way more impt.

Ah I look terrible here but he looks cute :)




Thanks for sweeping me off my feet 24/7
Happy 2nd, Beloved.

9:21 AM

Preliminary Examinations semi-cleared
Social Studies
CL(1)
CLB(1)
Physics
Biology 1
History
English
Accounts (2)

Finally I've cleared the taxing wearisome subjects(History & SS) that kills all my brain cells instantly. So now I'm left with:
●Phy/Bio Pract(tmrw)
●CL(2),CLB(2)
●Biology(2)
●Accounts(1)

I'm gna give myself a break and unwind tomorrow after science pract with my favourite boy. Followed by friday with my tennis pals & girlfriends. I realised that I've not met up with Jas since the start of her new journey at SIM = since may? I miss you la jas, with the ah lau & "its storytime" with you.

I've been gluping down numerous Brands Chicken Essence with American Ginseng and Birds' nest. It ain't helping me to stay awake & ready to absorb more content. However, I've been having sleepless nights =insomia for days. I'm so exhausted, I just wna snuggle up with Michael and experience serenity peace with him.

Since the major papers are over and after taking a break from the gym for abt 6days, its time to head to the gym and get back to my goal of losing 10kg by December without getting excessive stretch marks. Zephyr, lets lose more weight together!

One more thing, I realised that I've not been able to keep scerets well lately. Not from my friends but my family. Sometimes, I feel its better for them not to know anything as I don't want them to be agonized abt my well being. I'm pretty sure that most of you will agree that its better to listen to an adult as they're older&went through what I'm currently going through as an growing young adult. I'm not talking abt any sexuality or any sort. Just for my well being..

The goal of losing 10kg by December may be tough but its not possible if I keep myself motivated and think positively. For an example: 1 week, down by 1 kg. Simple calculation: its possible. However, my body make not be able to bear with the extensive alteration. Thus, I've consequences to worry abt.

It does not only apply to weight loss. Whatever you decision you make, there are consequences. Be it, pleasant or unacceptable. We have to accept it. We can't change the past but we can change the future, look forward to it. Life is full of obstacles, let it strengthen you within to become a better and more desirable you cos there are always room for improvements.

Okay its time to head to the gym.
To sum up, everything.


Happy 2nd in advance, love
Thank you for the exhilarating good times
I love you


♥♥♥

12:37 AM

Playing: Chantal Kreviazuk - Feels Like Home

17 August(3 days to SS prelim):
-Met up with my favourite boy in the evening for Dinner @ Chomp.
-Had a great explosion with his company:)

Saturday 18 August(2days to SS prelim):
-Had him next to me when I woke up in the morning:)
-Mugged my ass off for 6 hours before I met him for the Fireworks Festival @ Marina Bay
The fireworks were great!
I think the fireworks lasted for at least half an hr. Didn't capture it on video to share it with you guys though. I caught fireworks 3 times with Michael this year. Okay never mind, some people don't appreciate fireworks(looks at Z)

Dined in at Changing Appetites@Marina. Well when the maincourse came, it literally changed our appetites. I shall not elaborate on it everyone will have their experience. Man while we were walking in, this 2 metrosexually dressed men were checking M out. Well, he is hot isn't he? Hahaha all right.

Took a cab home with Mike and the journey back home was delightful. Thats why I love you, Mike:) Smiles widely

Sunday 19 August(1 day to SS prelim):
Had Physics tuition in the morning and mugged my ass off again. However, I could manage find time for myself and I went down to mum's shop to get my hair curled. Mugged my ass off again till abt midnight before I turned in and prepare myself for the prelim exam next morning.

Today 20th August(SS prelim, CL1 prelim, CLB1 prelim)
Today's the day, sat for the 2 language paper and 1 humanity. Good thing I banged on Growth of Nations and Good governance. Both came out:) As for mother tongue.... :/:/

Spent 1/4 of my day in the gym on cardio and weights today. I injured my tailbone again. The painkilers ain't working anymore.

Right now, I'm taking a break from the books. Just started revising Physics. Gotta start on History soon I guess..

8:10 AM

Playing: Rascal Flatts - My Wish
Count down: 2 days to SS/MT/CLB Prelim

Its been ages since I really had my blog updated about my life. Currently, I'm on a never-ending coaster ride. I've been suffering from insomnia for the past week due to these (few) factors:

● O Levels
● Prelim Examiations
● Weight Management
● Michael
● Insecurities
● Anger Management

Oftentimes I remind myself to prioritise. Action speaks louder than words. Easier to be said than done.

I'll share my secret with you.
I recieved my O level(MT) June paper result last Monday: E8.

From the start of the year, I made a decision to drop F&N(very time consuming subject) to concentrate on my other 6 core subjects. Come to think of it, I think I made the wrong choice of dropping it. I didn't expect myself to do so badly for MT to the extent with a grade of E8. I did not know how to react to it so I just kept quiet. Well there's no point of regretting it cos we can't change the past but we can change the future. (I know zephyr, this is not he first time i'm saying this)

What I considered after I recieved my terrible results were:
● Okay Anna Lee, at the rate you're going you won't be able to even qualify for the first 3mths. Can't even smell it
● I wasted my Dad's hard-earned money for 2 years(180/mth) and did not produce any results to make him proud
● What makes it worse that he was from HCI and expects me to do well for MT ok, at least a Pass(damn it)
● DSA(declined), DPA(declined) I'm on my own this time
● CLB

On a brighter note, our MT teacher told us to sign up for CLB and the CL paper for backup plan. Just in case I fail CL, I've got CLB(Pass grade) to back me up for a polytechnic course. (phewwwwwwwwWww)

This really hit me in the head woke me up from my slumber. Zephyr shared smth with me regarding our pal who sat for her O levels last year. Its private so I will pen down my opinion instead of telling you a long winded story.

I'm afraid that my drive and motivation will die out before I seat for my O level. I'm left with 2 months. Friends and loved ones remind me constantly that I'm left with 2 mths and give it my best shot and get it over and done with and not be distracted with.. (fill in the blanks) I think I procrastinate too much. Zephyr and Michael will definately agree. I can't seem to get myself on the ball and prepare myself for the upcoming examinations.

Where's my source of motivation?!?!?!?!
There's no time to waste, 2mth(4wks x2) thats how little time we've left! (for those who are seating for O levels this yr)

To sum up everything, persistence, determination and faith is what I lack now and I've fighting to keep up with time. I hope I will figure out what the h is wrong with me today I've got no more time to waste, seriously. I shall not whine anymore and let some photos to do some side tracking.


S5/2 for you


A lil peek of my favourite boy&I


My family & I

12:43 AM

Everyday, life presents us with opportunities. Mainly little opportunities but sometimes major ones too. It can either be a positive or a negative opportunities.

A negative one lessens one's ability to be a better person. A positive opportunity brings personal enrichment in one's life. Many positive opportunities are presented to us daily but we do not take them up.

What plays a big part? Our mental.

It blocks &hinders any effective response to a positive opportunity. For eg: if there is a maths club in school and you are weak in maths, should you join the club? Of course. It is an opportunity to improve in the subject. However instead of joining the club, we avoid doing so because we will be embarrassed by our weakness, it is a wasted opportunity.

Another example: tennis. There are always room for improvements and tournaments for us to take on. If we don't try, it will be another wasted opportunity. As a result, we will not improve and thus, it will be stagnant.

Sometimes, we miss opportunities cos we are indifferent to the opportunities around us. We think that we have no time to involve ourselves with anything or anyone else beyond our little circle of friends and interests. Oftentimes we're so wrapped up in living our lives and hectic schedules. Here again wasting opportunities..

Sometimes, we do not recognise opportunities. We hesitate to try smth we have not tried before as we're afraid that the outcome may not what we expected it to be. This is another opportunity. However, most people are unwilling to take up the opportunity as a challenge as they're afraid to move out of their comfort zone.

We should cultivate an positive attitude to pursue positive opportunities. New opportunities are challenges and life w/o challenges would be dull and boring. We should never look back and regret all the wasted opportunities in our lives as long as we treasure all opportunities and challenge our level of capability.

10:33 PM

Got this one of Zhenli's really old posts
A true boyfriend would do this:
- Sneak up behind her
- Grab her by the waist
- tell her shes beautiful
- tell her she has amazing eyes
- when your friends walk by say this is my girlfriend
- Say i love you to her face not over the phone or myspace
- if shes sad take her in your arms and tell her everything will beokay
- kiss her on the forehead- when you walk with her walk slowly.
- Tickle her even when she says stop.
- Call her just to say I Love You.
- Don't be afraid to hold her hand in public.

Hmm I think i'm really blessed to have met you. Well at the same time I always ask you why haven't we met earlier. But its all right what matters the most is right now and the years to come to spend our lives together. Thank you, M.

6:39 PM

I am Anna Lee, a Singaporean living in Singapore.
I'm turning 17 on 21st July.
Graduating from CHIJ this year.

I've strong passion in Tennis.
I belive with Determination & Persistance anything is possible.

I've the greatest bestfriend
in the world, Zephyr.
Last but not least, blissfully in Love
with Michael Gui.


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