Monday, April 10, 2006
I shall have a proper post today.
Woke up feeling lost.
Surprisingly, I was still on the bed when it was 5 minutes to 7am. My dad over slept today. That happens 1 in 6 months.
Fast forward
I fell asleep during physics & yeah, Mrs Tang teased me -.-
Had make up training today. We did physical for the first time this year! Its the first time since Grace, Mindy & I dropped to advanced team again.
Played tennis with Jasmine at club for 2 hours. I was totally off form. I knew I wasn't mentally stable. I was feeling emotional.
I guess its wrong for me not to speak to anyone abt it. Venting my anger on the balls didn't help abit. I was feeling even worse.
Oftentimes, I dont understand myself and the way I function. I try really hard, but somehow I failed. Sometimes, I feel I've got no emotions & most of the time, so emotional.
Is that pms?
I knew everything was coming. I knew all along. I knew I wasn't mentally ready for this. I knew I won't be able to accept the consequences of what we've done. I knew all along. But I gave in. I gave in for
you.
What you've whispered to my ears is on a replay mode. It hurts, cos I fell for you.
Viva forever, I'll be waiting.
Everlasting like the sun.
10:07 PM